You know how you get used to a certain schedule? Wake up, breakfast, play, snack, play, lunch, play, NAP, wake up, snack, play, supper, play, snack, BEDTIME.
During those NAPS, your much needed break after a morning of play that consists of dancing around in circles, being taken for a walk by your toddler, not to mention the frequent diaper changes, drink refills, is your opportunity to get a little grown up stuff done. You wait, you anticipate the time when you will be able to take a shower, do a little writing cause holy cow you actually have a fabulous idea for the next short story, an idea you have mulling over and over for months now and just couldn't figure out where it would go has finally become crystal clear and you just want to get it all down on paper as fast as you possibly can, or maybe you don't write and you are anxiously awaiting the moment you can get the house tidied a little, get prepared for dinner, that kind of stuff...but wait. That little child that should be napping has decided to take it upon herself to change your schedule. That's right. No nap today. Instead just constant screams when you try to lay her in bed.
You've got to be kidding. Don't get me wrong, I am not so set on a schedule that the slightest deviation sends me into a tailspin. I like a little spontenaity every now and again. But please...is it too much to ask for an hour or two of no interruptions, no one needing you for something? Just some peace and quiet. No childish music playing from the TV, no bells and whistles from that favourite toy. Just quiet. Complete blissful quiet.
It doesn't come often so that little time you do get to yourself needs to be cherished. Nurtured. Extended if at all possible but that is unlikely. Real wishful thinking.
So now, that time of the day that would usually be reserved for me...is slipping away. Actually it's long gone already as now it is almost time for the hubby to walk in the door. It's pointless to put her down for a nap now because then she will just be up late and there goes that time I could have later on. And then I am left with nothing today.
But there is always tomorrow.